OMG

OMG. . Just realized i didnt post anything on this last 1,5 years..

HAHAHA..

Many many things happened on this past 1,5 years and i dont know from where i shall start to write..

2014 was a turning point for me..

I was a bachelor degree now.. But it's not a big deal..

Beside that, i had make a big decision related on my previous previous post..

I had changed my new environment and new colleagues life..

Luckily, i didnt regret with my decision.. Thanks God..

Didnt aware that i had been so old now..

I supposed i were 18th or 20th.. But now i am 23rd..

Maybe all of you think 23rd is just a start, but for me 23rd is too late to start..

Finally i found something i like to do and  i wish to develop its..

Wish everything gonna be ok.. I'll tell you when all had been prepared and been started..

Nice day Bloggers.. Good Luck..

:D

Down

today i'm not feeling good..

i like to cry out loud..

being a strong women are really hard and tired..

i'm not mean that i'm a strong women..

but i just feel very very very tired and wanna cry out loud..

dont ask me what's the matter or what's the problem..

the person who knows me will know..

i'll never tell the truth..

of course i'll say nothing goes wrong or i'm fine..

dont force me to say something i dont wish to spell..

my mind was keep making some dialogues to solve some questions..

but, i know.. i just lied to my self..

i just dont what to believe them..

yes.. they were right and truth..

time to put it down..

please.. i dislike this feeling..

i'm not bear to know the truth..

but i just dont want being kept in dark..

i just feel like to puke out all of them..

or gimme some forgettable water.. LOL..

ok.. i'm feeling much better after pour down somethings on my mind..

i dont want to keep dialoguing over the same questions everydays..

make me forget them..

maybe i should try to let myself being busy?

lol

ok ok.. i'm fine.. dont worry..

nice day bloggers.. 

Is It Worth???

hii bloggers.. it's had been a long time since my last post..

sorry for my absence.. i didnt aware that time had past about 3 months and now is October..

omo.. 2013 will be finished in a few months a head..

and there will no any 2013 anymore..

cherish..

hmm.. have u ever wondering about something which one is worth for u and which one is not??

yap.. i this is what i face recently.. and it was so annoying..

"Worth or Not Worth" is it Important????

i know, for some people they will say dont expect to much for its contribution, as long as u were sincere doing that.. worth or not worth is a second problem.. let's God arrange them..

but some people will put a worth position in front of everything..

for what i was doing so much thing if it's not worth for me??

yes.. both side had its own side of view and i just dont know what will the best for me..

Stay or Leave, it's two choice but hard to choose..

u were afraid that if u were stay, u would miss a good opportunity in outside.. and u dont know if it is worth for u to stay..

but if u chose leave, u were not bear to leave.. because there's some people need u most and ask u to not leave.. u dont want to break them heart..

yes.. i know.. we must choose any choices soon or later..

it's so frustrated..

what will u choose??

Does it worth for u to choose that choice??

Will u regret for the choice u had chose??

sometimes my logic was ask me to leave.. because there's another good place a head..

dont stay at the sameplace too long.. try to jump outside and see the world..

yes.. that's my logic thought..

but, my heart ask me to stay.. to help them till they are independent without me and know everything i had done well..

but, how long i will stay?? my youth time is priceless..

who will return my time to me??

is it worth for sacrifice its?

i was cant being cruel..

i was cant leave if there's someone ask me to stay..

but will my stay worth for it??

Good Luck for u and me..

half of year

it's july..

congrats.. because we had go through a half of year..

but... it's pity too.. because 2013 is remaining half year old only..

time flies, age grows, and we are old..

have u reached your targets during this 2013, bloggers??

hope u have reached them all..

although i'm still far away from my dreams, but i believe one day i will...

during the step of my life, i met many many probs..

these probs make me see through what this life truly was..

everyone has them probs..

no matter how we envy others, the others will envy us for sure..

being adult is stressed..

we must consider of many parts before we do something..

isnt it??

being adult, all of money seems not enough for us..

were we live for making money??

yap.. maybe we were..

because everyday probs is money money and money..

sometimes i was wondering to have a world without money..

yapz.. it'll be a mess world..

hahahaha..

happiness is very simple..

dont need any money to compare or value it..

as long as we know how to content...

it will be more than enough..

Dream VS Reality

last night, i had a dream..

in my dream, i was back to my past..

my school time..

i miss them damn much..

there's a lot of memories inside..

in my dream, there's nothing change..

i just keep playing with my friends..

having a chat with them...

pretend to listen to my class although i didnt know what my teacher talked about..

i really really miss them..

my dream was so real..

its throw me back to my past..

let me felt for the moment we were being together, the moment we share anything together..

the feeling for the first time i fall in love..

the first time i cried because of love..

the first time i felt heart beat fast..

the first time i learnt to love someone..

i just enjoy my dream..

but, dream is always dream.. it cant be true...

we cant stay forever on there..

therefore, i woke up..

when i woke up, i could feel that my dream was so real..

till i still could felt my heart was beating although i had woke up from my dream..

my school time is my precious memories..

because at there, i meet them..

i will always keep them in my mind..

no wonders why everybody said school's time was the best moment in our journey of life..

and i found it truth..

all the best to all of u guys..

although in my reality, everything had changed..

everyone keeps change.. so do i..

fighting my friends.. 

 

Stupidity

have u ever had this kinds of feeling?
i dont know how to describe too..
but, my heart and my mind just felt so sucks..
I felt i were the stupid person in this world..
always believe someone easily..
and ended up with falsity..
i was not bear.. not bear to be lied..
maybe because i still cant received what i had seen and i chose to not believe what i see..
ya.. maybe..
i saw some fact and make me keeps wondering and thinking about..
i just felt drawback..
fact does hurt..
but i prefer to know that fact than to be a stupid person without know anything..
sometimes, i just dont know if/whether u were telling me the truth or not..
i cant believe u..
i wish i could..
but......
sorry..

 

 

here i found this pic..
it was so funny.. isnt it??
mood booster...
:D
there's always a way for those who has a will..
Hwaiting...

April Mop

Happy Fools April Mop, bloggers..

having some fun today..

and i hope all of u wont be fooled..

>.<

hmmm.. let's talk about feeling for today..
what do u feel right now?
blessed?? angry? mad? happy??
but, do u ever had some strange feelings??

i cant describe what's the strange feeling was..

didnt know what's the reason..

that feeling keeps haunting me..

is it normal???

i hope it was..

some of feeling was hard to forget although we had tried to forget..

right?

some event did too..

maybe i'm the one who over thinking about this..

time to put it down..

dont think to much..

but i just cant..

sometimes i still wondering for the same case..

i know, the problem is on me.. not others..

no matter how hard i tried, but once it got near, the strange feeling just pop out..

but i think it was normal..

because i may forget all the time as long as nothing recall me to... >.<

yapp..

telling u some good news..

last night, i had some gathering with my besties..

almost completed.. but its still uncompleted member on last night..

wondering when we will had a  complete gathering..

lol..

heard some stories about them, and all of us had truly having our own happiness..

and i hope this happiness will long ever lasting..

they were more mature than before..

maybe this is the force of situation and ages??

anyway, 

^^ Good luck friends..

with u by myside

surprised with my title of post??

^^

this is what i feel right now..

i feel so bless to have u in my life..

u received me unconditionally..

and i'll receive u with unconditionally too..

LOL.. a lil bit hyperbola...

:p

ya.. this is my recent life..

full of blissfulness..

thank you for everyone and someone who always stand by my side..

hope God will bless all of us..

many things happened and we had go through them..

i dont care if/whether my decision is right or wrong..

i just wanna live for this moment, for this current..

throw away all of my hesitation..

live and life for today..

thanks for not walk away when i tried to push u out..

Nice Weekend..

all.. 

^^

Halloooo

Sorry for being absence so long from this blog..
many many things happened during the time past..

Chinese New Year had passed..
i was enjoying the time during CNY at my hometown..
i could, i would like to stay at there..
but i know i cant..
everything will back to reality no matter what had happened..
people keeps doing the same activities during time passed..
so did i..
sometimes i just wondering what will happen for the next..
but noone knows..
there's too many memories for me at my hometown..
everywhere, every corner had memories between u n me..
maybe i'm the one who keep living on the past..
it's time to put it down..

take some breath..
yupz.. i believe.. all of us will find our true happiness..
we will and we must..
hwaiting....

let me tell u another good news..
i already complete and pass my final exam for bachelor degree..
and i'll receive my bachelor degree on this upcoming November 2013..
feel very excited.. all of my effort had paid off..
thanks God and thanks to all of u who help me and pray for me..
who encourage me.. thanks..
and for my friends who havent complete their task, wish u a ton of luck..
let's graduated together for this upcoming November.. ^^

actually, i had many many many things to share at here..
but i just dont know how to start..
how to type..
sooo.. that's all first..
nice day all...
^^
HWAITING... ^^

Happy New Year 2013

Cheeersss.. bloggers..

let's celebrate new year..

be grateful and thankful to God because of His guideness, so we can walk through 2012..

many things happened during 2012..

time does fly fast and time wont wait for those who waited..

it's all just a short dream for 2012..

it's really really finished too fast..

i'm very thankful to those who play some role in my life..

thanks for everything..

i liked to flash back some memories which had happened..

sometimes i wondering if someone up above us was watching our daily life..

our daily life for them were like movies..

maybe one year for us just one hour for them who are watching form up above..

we just like their puppet maybe..

sometimes, they will put some barrier for us to go through...

if we may success pass these barrier, we will be able to see a rainbow..

had u ever thought about it?

now, i'm older one year old again..

i hope 2013 will be better more than 2012..

no hurts, no pains, no tears..

only laughters and blisses..

i hope all of u will have a nice year for 2013..

and for those who had a dream that cant fullfill in 2012, i hope ur dreams will become true on 2013..

remember, action speaks louder than words..

XD Hwaiting friends..

fight for this 2013..

Cheerrs...

Belated X'mas

Happy Belated X'mas...

forgive me for being lazy to post anything recently..

i'm not forgot actually.. but because of Busy..

yes.. about my life recently was too busy..

because i must finish all of my final college's tasks..

kinda busy for this month..

about x'mas eve, i spent with my friends..

yupz.. we had alot of fun..

may this x'mas will leave a good impression for all of us..

cheerrsss....

:D

i think this last 2 months isn't a good month for a couple..

yupz.. what i means is relationship between boys and girls..

i saw many friends had a problem with this..

i hope all of u may overcome this..

remember..

every relationship has its own problems..

but what makes it perfect is when you still want to be there when everything sucks..

 

Chinese Bday

today is my chinese bday..

i wish for every little things in my life and every person in my life..

:D

thanks to everybody's effort..

thanks  for the surprise..

XD

growing up well.. ^^

12 Nov 2012

I was officially twenty two years on this last monday..

yupz.. twenty two on chinese ages..

someone told me that on this born day, we must thank to our mom because she brings us to this world...

yes.. u were right.. 

thank you mom.. without u, i wont at here..

thanks a lot..

love u mom.. and sorry for everything that i had made u sad..

hope mom always happy.. :D

talking about my bday.. hmmmm.. it's not as crowded as last year..

=))

because most of my friends were busy with their own things..

yupz.. i know.. all of us were busy recently..

but never mind.. i'm very thankful to those whose had made some plans for me..

i awore that all of people around me were a nice people..

i had met such a nice people in the journey of my life..

thanks God.. and i'll appreciate for sure..

thanks..

feel so blissfull..

this cake was amazing, right? XD

with my colleagues.. thanks.. :*

@ UIB..

with my colleges.. :* thanks.. but some of them can't attend.. :(

with my colleges.. :D

these were my bday's cake for this year.. it's amazing.. :D

Minds before Mouth

sometimes, a good chance only come once..

and once u reject or miss it, u will never find it anymore..

a good chance wont ask u twice or second time..

so make sure that before u reject, u must minds before mouth..

yupz..

as human being, we often mouth before minds..

it's means we always make a decision and replay others question or giving statements before a calm thought..

we always give out our respon with mouth without consider with minds..

and, as human being, what we said out is sometimes different with our thought..

actually we wanted A, but we said we wanted B..

OMG.. life is too complicated..

yupz.. it's our as human that make it complicated..

out minds does..

maybe it's called different on minds and different on heart..

well.. i dont think heart will have this kinds of feeling / kinda feeling of desire..

but, all of people and quotes most said, follow ur heart..

but.... it's difficult..

sometimes, once i said no, but after a second thought i was regret..

i regret about the decision and respon that i gave out..

but, there's not need to cry over a spilled milk..

so.. before making any decision, please make sure..

please had a second thought.. 

remember, Minds before Mouth..

Qing Fei De Yi

all of sudden, i saw my friend update his status with this lyric of song..

Qing Fei De Yi by F4 on Meteor Garden..

are u familiar with this song?

have u watched that Meteor Garden movie?? it's nice right???

Meteor Garden is one of the most famous Taiwanese dramas out there.

It is based on the Japanese manga Hana Yori Dango.

Meteor Garden also gave birth to F4, an extremely famous boy band made up of the male leading actors of the drama..

Meteor Garden also had many version.. it had a korea version and japan version too.. 

below is the Qing Fei De Yi lyric:

难以忘记初次见你　一双迷人的眼睛
nányǐ wàngjì chū cì jiàn nǐ 　 yī shuāng mírén de yǎnjīng
在我脑海里　你的身影　挥散不去
zài wǒ nǎo hǎilǐ 　 nǐ de shēnyǐng 　 huī sǎn bù qù
握你的双手感觉你的温柔
wò nǐ de shuāngshǒu gǎnjué nǐ de wēnróu
真的有点透不过气　你的天真　我想珍惜
zhēnde yǒudiǎn tòubùguò qì 　 nǐ de tiānzhēn 　 wǒ xiǎng zhēnxī
看到你受委屈　我会伤心
kàndào nǐ shòu wěiqū 　 wǒ huì shāngxīn

It's hard to forget the first time I saw you
that fascinating pair of eyes
In my mind your image couldn't get it out of my head
When I hold your hands and feel your tenderness
It's really a bit too much for me to handle
Your innocence is something I want to treasure
if you're wronged by anyone I will grieve

只怕我自己会爱上你　不敢让自己靠的太近
zhǐ pà wǒ zìjǐ huì àishàng nǐ 　 bùgǎn ràng zìjǐ kào de tài jìn
怕我没什么能够给你　爱你也需要很大的勇气
pà wǒ méishénme nénggòu gěi nǐ 　 ài nǐ yě xūyào hěn dà de yǒngqì

I'm just afraid I will fall in love with you - Dare not let myself come too close to you
I fear not having something to offer you - Loving you may require a lot of courage too

只怕我自己会爱上你　也许有天会情不自禁
zhǐ pà wǒ zìjǐ huì àishàng nǐ 　 yěxǔ yǒu tiān huì qíng bù zì jīn
想念只让自己苦了自己　爱上你是我情非得已
xiǎngniàn zhǐ ràng zìjǐ kǔ le zìjǐ 　 àishàng nǐ shì wǒ qíng fēi děi yǐ
爱上你是我情非得已
àishàng nǐ shì wǒ qíng fēi děi yǐ

I'm just afraid I will fall in love with you - Maybe one day I won't control it anymore
Thinking just makes one suffer - I just can't help falling in love with you

什么原因　我竟然又会遇见你
shénme yuányīn 　 wǒ jìngrán yòu huì yùjiàn nǐ
我真的真的不愿意　就这样陷入爱的陷阱
wǒ zhēnde zhēnde bùyuànyì 　 jiù zhèyàngde xiànrù ài de xiànjǐng

What’s the reason why I suddenly met you again
I really really don’t want to
fall into this love trap...

Crazy

i must be crazy recently..

why i cant stop my mind from u..

why u always appear in my day and night..

before i slept, i thought about u until i sleep away..

when i awoke on the middle night, u were the 1st who appear..

when morning, and i opened my eyes, u appeared..

i must be CRAZY.. 

OMG.. someone help me..

i dont even like this feeling..

it's tortured me badly..

:'(

*when all of u read this blog, all of u will confuse right? are u wondering that i'm falling in love?? =))

exactly nope.. what i'm not refer to Person.. please be noted.. :p

many things happened..

yeah.. of course.. if not, that's not life, right?

last night i received a news..

my besties has broken with her bf because her family aware about their relation..

yeah.. they were backstreet.. and unfortunately, her family know about it and asked her to break with him..

excuse me.... why do parents nowadays so unreasonable?

yeah.. of course they will say they are reasonable, please believe them..

and they will told that what they considers all are about us..

thats boy didnt suit with u.. please go back with your  exbf..

he is more suit that him..

sorry.. this is relation.. and parents didnt need to jump into this relation.. right?

but a relation without any blessing from family cant go smooth and happy..

what should she do?

and what will i do if i was her??

i dont know..

family is very important to me.. more than everything..

but, if i was on relation, that boy is very important to me for sure..

both side are important.. which side should i choose?

i really dont know..

just forget it.. i hope i wont meet this kind of case..

and please be strong friend..

please dont give up..

make ur parent believe about ur choice..

and make sure that he can bring u happiness..

that's the most important..

*big hug for u..

Recently

just realized that i had been absent for a long time from here..

so i decided to make some post..

about my recently life, "BUSY & TIRED"

i think all of us know how stressfull for a 7th terms colleger..

they must finished their KP and Skripsi..

so do i..

what i faced everyday and worried about was KP and Skripsi..

KP is easier than Skripsi..

about skripsi, nothing i can say.. only pray hard and hope God give me some strenght to finished it..

here is a illustration about my daily activities..

this is what i must input into my skripsi. all of listed company on Bursa Malaysia..

946 company above will be multiply with 5 years.. so i must input about 4.730 firms.. OMG..

But i will try to eliminated some of them.. =)) 

this is what i inputed everyday.. @@

Stress right? =))

but neverminds... what i concentrated now is about my graduation..

my graduatio is a head now..

once i finished these shit, i will be free..

pray hard.. 

Good Luck Friends... ^^