Down

today i'm not feeling good..

i like to cry out loud..

being a strong women are really hard and tired..

i'm not mean that i'm a strong women..

but i just feel very very very tired and wanna cry out loud..

dont ask me what's the matter or what's the problem..

the person who knows me will know..

i'll never tell the truth..

of course i'll say nothing goes wrong or i'm fine..

dont force me to say something i dont wish to spell..

my mind was keep making some dialogues to solve some questions..

but, i know.. i just lied to my self..

i just dont what to believe them..

yes.. they were right and truth..

time to put it down..

please.. i dislike this feeling..

i'm not bear to know the truth..

but i just dont want being kept in dark..

i just feel like to puke out all of them..

or gimme some forgettable water.. LOL..

ok.. i'm feeling much better after pour down somethings on my mind..

i dont want to keep dialoguing over the same questions everydays..

make me forget them..

maybe i should try to let myself being busy?

lol

ok ok.. i'm fine.. dont worry..

nice day bloggers.. 

Is It Worth???

hii bloggers.. it's had been a long time since my last post..

sorry for my absence.. i didnt aware that time had past about 3 months and now is October..

omo.. 2013 will be finished in a few months a head..

and there will no any 2013 anymore..

cherish..

hmm.. have u ever wondering about something which one is worth for u and which one is not??

yap.. i this is what i face recently.. and it was so annoying..

"Worth or Not Worth" is it Important????

i know, for some people they will say dont expect to much for its contribution, as long as u were sincere doing that.. worth or not worth is a second problem.. let's God arrange them..

but some people will put a worth position in front of everything..

for what i was doing so much thing if it's not worth for me??

yes.. both side had its own side of view and i just dont know what will the best for me..

Stay or Leave, it's two choice but hard to choose..

u were afraid that if u were stay, u would miss a good opportunity in outside.. and u dont know if it is worth for u to stay..

but if u chose leave, u were not bear to leave.. because there's some people need u most and ask u to not leave.. u dont want to break them heart..

yes.. i know.. we must choose any choices soon or later..

it's so frustrated..

what will u choose??

Does it worth for u to choose that choice??

Will u regret for the choice u had chose??

sometimes my logic was ask me to leave.. because there's another good place a head..

dont stay at the sameplace too long.. try to jump outside and see the world..

yes.. that's my logic thought..

but, my heart ask me to stay.. to help them till they are independent without me and know everything i had done well..

but, how long i will stay?? my youth time is priceless..

who will return my time to me??

is it worth for sacrifice its?

i was cant being cruel..

i was cant leave if there's someone ask me to stay..

but will my stay worth for it??

Good Luck for u and me..

half of year

it's july..

congrats.. because we had go through a half of year..

but... it's pity too.. because 2013 is remaining half year old only..

time flies, age grows, and we are old..

have u reached your targets during this 2013, bloggers??

hope u have reached them all..

although i'm still far away from my dreams, but i believe one day i will...

during the step of my life, i met many many probs..

these probs make me see through what this life truly was..

everyone has them probs..

no matter how we envy others, the others will envy us for sure..

being adult is stressed..

we must consider of many parts before we do something..

isnt it??

being adult, all of money seems not enough for us..

were we live for making money??

yap.. maybe we were..

because everyday probs is money money and money..

sometimes i was wondering to have a world without money..

yapz.. it'll be a mess world..

hahahaha..

happiness is very simple..

dont need any money to compare or value it..

as long as we know how to content...

it will be more than enough..

Dream VS Reality

last night, i had a dream..

in my dream, i was back to my past..

my school time..

i miss them damn much..

there's a lot of memories inside..

in my dream, there's nothing change..

i just keep playing with my friends..

having a chat with them...

pretend to listen to my class although i didnt know what my teacher talked about..

i really really miss them..

my dream was so real..

its throw me back to my past..

let me felt for the moment we were being together, the moment we share anything together..

the feeling for the first time i fall in love..

the first time i cried because of love..

the first time i felt heart beat fast..

the first time i learnt to love someone..

i just enjoy my dream..

but, dream is always dream.. it cant be true...

we cant stay forever on there..

therefore, i woke up..

when i woke up, i could feel that my dream was so real..

till i still could felt my heart was beating although i had woke up from my dream..

my school time is my precious memories..

because at there, i meet them..

i will always keep them in my mind..

no wonders why everybody said school's time was the best moment in our journey of life..

and i found it truth..

all the best to all of u guys..

although in my reality, everything had changed..

everyone keeps change.. so do i..

fighting my friends.. 

 

Stupidity

have u ever had this kinds of feeling?
i dont know how to describe too..
but, my heart and my mind just felt so sucks..
I felt i were the stupid person in this world..
always believe someone easily..
and ended up with falsity..
i was not bear.. not bear to be lied..
maybe because i still cant received what i had seen and i chose to not believe what i see..
ya.. maybe..
i saw some fact and make me keeps wondering and thinking about..
i just felt drawback..
fact does hurt..
but i prefer to know that fact than to be a stupid person without know anything..
sometimes, i just dont know if/whether u were telling me the truth or not..
i cant believe u..
i wish i could..
but......
sorry..

 

 

here i found this pic..
it was so funny.. isnt it??
mood booster...
:D
there's always a way for those who has a will..
Hwaiting...

April Mop

Happy Fools April Mop, bloggers..

having some fun today..

and i hope all of u wont be fooled..

>.<

hmmm.. let's talk about feeling for today..
what do u feel right now?
blessed?? angry? mad? happy??
but, do u ever had some strange feelings??

i cant describe what's the strange feeling was..

didnt know what's the reason..

that feeling keeps haunting me..

is it normal???

i hope it was..

some of feeling was hard to forget although we had tried to forget..

right?

some event did too..

maybe i'm the one who over thinking about this..

time to put it down..

dont think to much..

but i just cant..

sometimes i still wondering for the same case..

i know, the problem is on me.. not others..

no matter how hard i tried, but once it got near, the strange feeling just pop out..

but i think it was normal..

because i may forget all the time as long as nothing recall me to... >.<

yapp..

telling u some good news..

last night, i had some gathering with my besties..

almost completed.. but its still uncompleted member on last night..

wondering when we will had a  complete gathering..

lol..

heard some stories about them, and all of us had truly having our own happiness..

and i hope this happiness will long ever lasting..

they were more mature than before..

maybe this is the force of situation and ages??

anyway, 

^^ Good luck friends..

with u by myside

surprised with my title of post??

^^

this is what i feel right now..

i feel so bless to have u in my life..

u received me unconditionally..

and i'll receive u with unconditionally too..

LOL.. a lil bit hyperbola...

:p

ya.. this is my recent life..

full of blissfulness..

thank you for everyone and someone who always stand by my side..

hope God will bless all of us..

many things happened and we had go through them..

i dont care if/whether my decision is right or wrong..

i just wanna live for this moment, for this current..

throw away all of my hesitation..

live and life for today..

thanks for not walk away when i tried to push u out..

Nice Weekend..

all.. 

^^

Halloooo

Sorry for being absence so long from this blog..
many many things happened during the time past..

Chinese New Year had passed..
i was enjoying the time during CNY at my hometown..
i could, i would like to stay at there..
but i know i cant..
everything will back to reality no matter what had happened..
people keeps doing the same activities during time passed..
so did i..
sometimes i just wondering what will happen for the next..
but noone knows..
there's too many memories for me at my hometown..
everywhere, every corner had memories between u n me..
maybe i'm the one who keep living on the past..
it's time to put it down..

take some breath..
yupz.. i believe.. all of us will find our true happiness..
we will and we must..
hwaiting....

let me tell u another good news..
i already complete and pass my final exam for bachelor degree..
and i'll receive my bachelor degree on this upcoming November 2013..
feel very excited.. all of my effort had paid off..
thanks God and thanks to all of u who help me and pray for me..
who encourage me.. thanks..
and for my friends who havent complete their task, wish u a ton of luck..
let's graduated together for this upcoming November.. ^^

actually, i had many many many things to share at here..
but i just dont know how to start..
how to type..
sooo.. that's all first..
nice day all...
^^
HWAITING... ^^

Happy New Year 2013

Cheeersss.. bloggers..

let's celebrate new year..

be grateful and thankful to God because of His guideness, so we can walk through 2012..

many things happened during 2012..

time does fly fast and time wont wait for those who waited..

it's all just a short dream for 2012..

it's really really finished too fast..

i'm very thankful to those who play some role in my life..

thanks for everything..

i liked to flash back some memories which had happened..

sometimes i wondering if someone up above us was watching our daily life..

our daily life for them were like movies..

maybe one year for us just one hour for them who are watching form up above..

we just like their puppet maybe..

sometimes, they will put some barrier for us to go through...

if we may success pass these barrier, we will be able to see a rainbow..

had u ever thought about it?

now, i'm older one year old again..

i hope 2013 will be better more than 2012..

no hurts, no pains, no tears..

only laughters and blisses..

i hope all of u will have a nice year for 2013..

and for those who had a dream that cant fullfill in 2012, i hope ur dreams will become true on 2013..

remember, action speaks louder than words..

XD Hwaiting friends..

fight for this 2013..

Cheerrs...