not ready

i'm not ready for any relation now..i didnt have any courage..
i'm afraid it'll repeat again like my last relation..
all of us will be hurt at the end..
so it's better dont take any risk..
just enjoy my life..
until i'm ready for it..
i'm looking for a serious relation..
i want that the relation that i taken will be the last for me..
i wish the one whom i choose on future, will be the one who always stand for me..
i wish the one whom i choose on future, will be the one who put me a wedding ring..
wkakakkakakaka...
i wish the one whom i choose on future, will be the one who accompany me until the end of the world..
so, i dont have any time to playing or to trying any relation..
i didnt want to hurt anyone..
is it possible for me to find a true love?
sometimes i confused, if i had blocked my fate..
i always reject and avoid from relation..
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am i too silly?
looking forward to a silly thing?
i dont know.. and all of us wont know until the day is coming..
i'm not looking for a perfect guy or searching for a perfect relation..
i just need someone that can make me feel that he is my fate..
he is my Mr. Right..
and i'm comfortable with him..
i just need a guy who cherish me..
i know that fairytale won't appear in this reality..
because every journey will have barrier..
the one who passed it will see the happiness..
and the one who failed will never had it..