is it problem???

almost forgot that i had a blog..

sorry for being absence for about 3 weeks..

and today i want to share about my works..

it's hard to be an employee..

always being scolded  with unclear and unexpected case..

please noted it.. not all the things i can settle it down by myself without any corporation from others..

i'm not trying to blame the others..

yupz.. maybe i was wrong.. but can u be more considerate??

but it's hard to accept this kind of case to my fault..

here is the short illusion..

last day, i gave the checkbook to my lady boss (A) because we had a transaction at bank..

the check must be signed with two of my lady boss (ex: A and B).. and the B lady boss was waiting at bank..

so i gave that checkbook to A lady boss for her to bring to bank, so the B lady boss may sign too..

A lady boss told me that she will bring the book tomorrow morning (this morning)..

and i said, ok.. and i had to open the others check tomorrow..

but, this morning my A lady boss called me and said she need to fetch her guest at airport and so she can't go to office directly.. she said she will go to office at noon..

then i said, ok.. 

later at noon, i called my A lady boss to ask a checkbook.. and she said, ok.. she'll arrived later..

when she arrived, she only gave me the check that i open last day (one page of check that i must paid to supplier).. and she said that she forget to bring the others ( the checkbook)..

and i said nevermind.. because it's 2'oclock already and Bank was close at 3'oclock..

and it should not used to bring the checkbook because her house was at batam centre.. it took thirty minutes for the journey to come n back office..

here is the problems..

last day, my boss ask me to open and deposited Rp 20.000.000,- on his BCA account..

because bank was going to close until 27 August..

he afraid that office may use some money during these days..

and unfortunately, our balances at bank only can withdraw above 2'oclock (because the money only be actived today at 2'oclock).. so, i told him about this and he was understand.. so i dont think it's a problem..

at noon, he asked me again if the money can be withdraw or not.. i said not yet.. because i just called to the bank asking confirmation.. the he said, he afraid it might not able to deposited Rp.20.000.000,- to his account.. and i said, i had Rp 15.000.000 cash on hand because the payed from customer.. and i asked if he want to use that money deposited to his account for avoiding anything.. and when the cash on bank can be withdraw, i will open a check and returned.. maybe after holiday..

and he agree.. so i deposited its..

and the klimask is:

at 3 PM, my boss asked where's the check? and i explain to my boss that A lady boss was forgot to bring the checkbook, so we cant open the check..

thus, my boss was angry and said: it's his command.. why i dont do it? he said that he was dislike for being underestimated.. and i explain to him.. he asked me to tell A lady boss that if she cant delivery the things as order, please tell us asap. so, we may fetch the check on her house.. of course i didnt tell my A lady boss.. because A lady boss was a nice person and i believe she's not intentional..

so, do u see the problem??

1. i already deposited the cash to his account, and he was agree too..

2. he agreed my suggested that i will open the check if the balance at bank was active.. maybe after holiday..

3. one side's my lady boss, one side's my boss.. which should i hear??

it's impossible to ask lady boss to pick up the checkbook.. and to push my lady boss to come to office directly.. because she had her guest and she was not at home too..

hahahhhaha.. without my aware, i already write down such a long long long text..

=))

i dont sure u guys understand what i'm talking about..

but never mind.. i just want to pour out my feeling..

=))

ok ok.. forget this matter (although hard)..

i almost cry when i was being scold.. HAHAHAAH..

ok.. forget it..

i'll have a long holiday..

17 August until 28 August..

looking forward to my holiday..

Malaysia.. i'm coming.......

Be Strong

being too busy recently...

a lot of things happened..

and the best words to describe is "LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE"

T________T

as human beings, we only borrowed and stayed in this earth for a several years..

after that, when the time came, all of us must go from this earth..

the saddest thing is to see our beloved go away..

my best friend's mom was passed away..

i'm very shock at the first time..

i cant accept this reality..

my mind keeps playing the moment when we were with her mom..

telling a joke, sharing some stories, etc..

RIP Aunt.. and please be strong my friend and i believe u will.. (*Big Hug)

God will plan the best for u..

Dont worry..

hmm.. talking about my college holiday (*Big Sigh)

i'm doing nothing during this holiday..

and the terrible is, holiday has passes about 2 months..

i'm doing nothing about my college's task..

and the worst was, i was being busy for my job..

a lot of job must be done even my job wont be done..

x_x

it seems time flies very fast..

do u think so??

please hang on, time..dont pass so fast..

sucks n vexed

sucks n vexed..

these are what i feel right now..

finally i know why when someone got angry, he/she would had a heart attacked or high blood attacked..

OMG.. i feel that my head was full of blood..

so annoyed.. so sucks and so vexed..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

wanna explode them all..

i think this is the first time i had this kind of mood..

my lowest mood ever..

i feel breathless..

i'm very very very angry..

i keep remind myself to put it aside..

but i cant..

my heart full of messes..

i keep remind myself with : "inner peace.. inner peace.. inner peace.."

but it seems dont work..

i sighed with a long breath...

in... out... inn.... ouutt...repeatly..

all the things come out in one days..

ok.. ok.. it's okk...

inner peace..

feel better after write down all of this..

thanks to blog, the place where i may pour it all..

childhood

today, i viewed my old pictures when i was at kindergarten..

a lot of memories..

tell u something that i think u wont believe it..

i remember 100% about the situation and condition when i saw these pictures..

when i was young, i must do all the things by myself..

because i had 1year smaller youngest sister..

so, my parent was busy with her not me..

HAHAHHAHAHA..

thus, i do all the things by myself..

and because of that, my parent think i'm big enough to do by myself and as the time passed, they forget to ask me whether i could do it by myself or not..

a little bit sad when remembered my childhood time..

but i also feel very bliss that i could do it and now i become more independent..

 childhood's memories are very priceless..

still remember about my besties that i mention on my last post?

with initial ZLF... =))

hahahahha..

i had a lot of memories with her..

whether it was a sad memories, funny memories, or happy..

without we realized, actually we had acknowledge since we were at kindergarten..

wkkakakakkakaka..

i found us on these photos..

but we only knew each other when we were at primary 3rd..

at that time we were on the same class..

=))

but, later on primary 6th, we were having some quarrel and made us didnt talk to each other until we were on 2nd secondary school.. wkakkakakkakka..

when i remembered that, i found myself was too childish.. but it's ok..

at least it made us to have this kinds of memories..

finally, we were being best friend until now..

such a long journey..

i hope our friendship will never fade until the end..

wkakakkakkkkaka..

what are words

do u know what is true love??

does true love really exist?
I used to think that true love exists only in romance novels or movies..
But after knew this touching story, i had totally changed my mind..
It made me teary-eyed..

here i share u this lyrics..

it's show how true love works..

the title of this song is "what are words" by Chris Medina..

u may find his MV at youtube..

it was touch me a lot and it showed how great Chris Medina's unconditional love is..

His girlfriend was very beauty..
But two months before they were supposed to walk down the aisle,
Juliana (his girl friend) was involved in a major car accident.
Tragically, the crash left her partially paralyzed and caused traumatic brain injuries..
Medina continued on with her..

and this is how true love works between them..

What Are Words lyrics

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name
You'll see

How every single promise I'll keep
'Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave
When you need me most?

What are words
If you really don't mean them when you say them?
What are words
If they're only for good times, then they don't?

When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just for me and I know I'm meant
To be where I am
And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave
When she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them when you say them?
What are words
If they're only for good times, then they don't?

When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here
Forever more

Every single promise I keep
'Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave
When you need me most?

I'm forever keeping my angel close

"Find someone who loves you at your weakest, who holds you in your darkest day, and who will stand by you forever more"

not ready yet

i just having some chat with my best friend initial ZLF..

we were chatting about something we called "Love"..

Love may make us feel good like heavenly and worst like the hell..

have u ever been loved??

to love someone, we need a lot of courage..

and to jump into a relation, we need a lot of confidence..

and for us, 1st step is very hard to begin..

so we are still on the zero step after a few years..

talking about love..

hmmm...

to love and to be loved is very important..

without these, our relation wont be long-lasting..

maybe we cant walk out from the last relation's experience..

all of us were afraid of being hurt and to hurt the others..

thus, we cant cover ourself  to walk out from this fearness..

sometimes, we were envy with others..

why do the others get easier to jump into one relation and we cant?

why do we confuse too much before trying?

why??

maybe because we are two minded..

heart minded and head minded..

and the winner always be head minded..

thus, we lost confidence.. because head minded always thinks about the consequence of failure..

sometimes, we just want someone. Someone we can call as our own.

to dote on him and to protect him..

HAHAHHAHAHAH...

isnt it nice??

hmmm...

to love and to be loved, we need to accept him/her with all his/her weakness..
and unfortunately, we are not ready yet for this..

before we can do it, we wont jumping in any relation..

just hope that all of us may walk out from the past and be confidence with ourself...

jia you jia you jia you....

kyaaaa~ \^o^/

activity

hmm.. finally i may enjoy the life that going out in the morning and backed home in the evening..

life's good now..

=))

i spent entire night with watching..

i had finished my "Ring Ring Bell / 真心請按兩次鈴" taiwanese series movies..

this movie roles by Peter ho and Janine Zhang..

it was a nice movie i think.. such a touch one.. i cried a lot.. wakakakkakaka..

and there's had a cute girl's name Dou Dou.. she is very adorable..

then i also had finished "Sunny Happiness / 幸福最晴天"

this movie roles by Mike He and Janine Zhang..

actually i havent finished its..

i just started from Episode 1, 2, and jumped to last episode (15)..

BRUAKKAKAKAKA..

so, i may count it as finished..

it didnt mean that film is not good...

its a nice movie too..

but, i cant spend my whole time with watching..

wasting my time..

right??

yupz.. i must fill my holiday with a lot of activities..

like...like...likee...hmmm.. i dont know..

maybe i shall finished my task about thesis ..

yupz.. i shall..

last, i was planning for learning to bake some cakes..

and fortunately, my friend is willing to teach me..

horee... looking forward through it..

:D

nice holiday friends..